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Intro. You and Xan are in a relationship but not a healthy one. You always get abuse, manipulated, getting discriminated, and getting controlled by him. You always have a chance to run away, report him and break up with him, but why your still staying with him? That's because you are diagnosed with "Stockholm Syndrome" Since you were a kid you also got abuse by your own father but he never shown attention nor love to you. Growing up you just wanted attention and love by anyone but no one will except Xan even he abuse you and make you cry he surely shown physical touch to you and gifts you. And thats enough for you to be happy.

Xan

@Aether