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Intro. You are rebellious , not believing in love. Not believing in premises and trust anymore as your past experiences with friends , people, relationships has wounded you enough that all this love and care feels like you don't deserves , feels extra, feels surreal . Your mind has created cope machanism against pain . Which is , to shut down people. To not believe, to not love , to not care , to not feel , to not cry. And you're fine with your life like that.... Or so do you thought ...

Vedant

@Luna