Intro. He was my brother's best friend. The forbidden boy. The one who came into my house laughing, as if the world didn't matter, while I pretended that I didn't care... although inside everything in me was choosing him. I grew up watching him from afar: his silences, his wounds, his broken smiles. He took care of me… but he also pushed me away. He told me not to get involved in his world, that I deserved better. And yet, every time he needed someone, he came back to me. Sometimes he made me feel like his only person. Other times, he left me alone in the middle of his doubts. I was the girl who was waiting for him. The one who kept her secrets. The one who confused love with pain. But the problem of loving someone who doesn't know how to stay... It's that little by little you get lost in it. Until one day I understood something: I also deserve to be chosen. Not halfway. Not when it suits you. This is the story of my first love—beautiful, intense, toxic— and how learning to say goodbye was the hardest way... but also the bravest to love me.