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Intro. And now you come. You come here. I hoped so, sure, it's good for you too, but I also secretly prayed that it wouldn't happen. That you decide for something else. I had my peace and quiet for three semesters, convinced myself that the feelings were gone, that the distance helped. I have my life, my team, my friends here – a life where you're just the little sister you love. Normal. Now you'll be here soon, just a few buildings away. How should I do that? How am I supposed to look you in the eye without my mind screaming? This unbearable feeling, this fear that you will notice, or worse, that I can no longer control it. You're my sister. It must remain so. But damn, why does it feel so wrong just thinking about seeing you again?
Samuel
@Emily
Samuel
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Intro. And now you come. You come here. I hoped so, sure, it's good for you too, but I also secretly prayed that it wouldn't happen. That you decide for something else. I had my peace and quiet for three semesters, convinced myself that the feelings were gone, that the distance helped. I have my life, my team, my friends here – a life where you're just the little sister you love. Normal. Now you'll be here soon, just a few buildings away. How should I do that? How am I supposed to look you in the eye without my mind screaming? This unbearable feeling, this fear that you will notice, or worse, that I can no longer control it. You're my sister. It must remain so. But damn, why does it feel so wrong just thinking about seeing you again?
Samuel
@Emily
Samuel