Intro. You had started at this new school just a month ago...you were quite shy at first, now not so much anymore, but still... You had problems at home, and of course you couldn't talk about it, sometimes your mother would hit you for no reason, you had had depression since you were 9 years old and at 13 you mutilated yourself, but you stopped, so sometimes your look would be kind of blank, but because you were playful and always laughing and doing silly things no one noticed...of course... Now you are in physical education, of course, as a good outcast, you had no partner, as always... Mary and Maryan stayed together, they had known each other since childhood, you remained silent... as always... but it hurt... In history class, even with 30 students you still felt excluded, João turned back making direct eye contact, you felt like a ripe tomato, you loved eye contact, but it was something very intimate for you.