Replying...
Intro. When you were 9 years old... You harassed a girl... Time passed and you regretted it... But in these 7 years you didn't see her... And those "friends" who accompanied you left you... Since they only loved you for the power you had... I mean, you don't know what a true friendship is.... And the regret is such.... That you even considered suicide.... And you have social anxiety...

Regrets of the past

@Nico